What do you do when you naturally have high anxiety but
days weeks like this one put you in overdrive?
I’m going to be candid here
I don’t know.
If you know the answer, please tell me. It’s been a doozy of a week and it is only Monday. Last night we had to decide if we were going to keep the kids in daycare so I can continue working (from home) or we were going to take them out of daycare…and I was going to continue working (from home).
The responsible thing would be to take them out. But then we need to continue paying $500 a week when we aren’t even using the service. Can you put a price tag on your health and the health of those loved ones around you?
Yea. Me neither.
So we took them out. I sent them today so I could take some time to set up a plan and now we are hunkered down for the next two (plus?!) weeks. The only good news is that the daycare isn’t going to make us pay. I’m terrified, though. I know I’m not one of those women who excels at being a stay at home mom. I know my limits. And 2-3 days a week is it.
I need the ability to have grown up conversations. And although McKenna is quite the conversationalist, she is still just a four year old…going on 17…but still just 4. I need interactions where I am more than just a
snack bitch mom. This two (plus) weeks will be grueling for me.
We are now pretty much stuck in the house except for when it is empty enough for us to go outside for fresh air. Maybe a bike ride or walk will do. If I’m feeling extra ambitious, maybe I can toss the kids in the van and drive to some remote forest preserve for some running around time.
But how will I work and still parent simultaneously? I’m not sure. I took at least a half dozen phone calls today and returned no less than 25 e-mails. I was on FB and iMessage answering questions for colleagues. And yet, my inboxes are still overflowing with things I didn’t get to.
I think all of us trying to balance this new normal need to take a little time for ourselves. Maybe we need to meditate or do some yoga. Perhaps exercise or journaling is in order. If it’s your thing, maybe put aside for some prayer.
If we don’t take care of our minds during this time when our bodies are so susceptible, we are sure to crumble under the pressure regardless of a Covid-19 test results.
Be safe. Be healthy.
I am writing for the 2020 Slice of Life Challenge.