There were a few nice days in a row a couple weeks ago. McKenna decided to partake in her favorite pastime. I like to encourage any activity which gives her fresh air and moves her body in a way she enjoys so I didn’t protest too much. But what is this favorite pastime she enjoys with such a passion?

We should have done it long ago. It was one of those things we just kept putting off and putting off. Then it was just embarrassing. Who has time to actually go see someone to do estate planning? There is SO much involved with this. After much hemming and hawing and pushing it off yet again, I finally just made an appointment. It has been on our to do list for literally almost nine years.

I don’t dream about her often. It’s actually pretty rare. It was years before she came to me in dream. Like the kind of dream I could both see and hear her…those kinds never happened. She was always a glimmer just off set. More of a feeling of her presence than actually being in the room with me. It left me thinking that it hadn’t really happened when I awoke.

Yesterday we had my son’s Scout Blue and Gold Dinner. We packed up the whole family to go together. Even Great Grandpa and Regular Grandpa joined us. George was so excited to win a trophy for the Pinewood Derby Backwards Race. McKenna and George both ran around with friends while Theo spent most of the time snuggled up on my lap. I assumed it was the damn DST messing with my usually feral toddler.

TRIGGER WARNING: talk of depression, anxiety, ADHD, and systematic failures in ND diagnosis for women—this is also pretty lengthy

I had long suspected it. More in that…oooh…squirrel kind of way than the windup toy kinda way. Can you visualize the difference? It wasn’t that I couldn’t attend. It’s just that I would attend to all the wrong things. Like…put me in front of a spreadsheet and I could work that data while the building burned down around me. But I just couldn’t attend to things like following up on doctor appointments or keeping up with laundry.

Way back when the world stopped…for just two weeks…George took a sudden liking to a babydoll that had been sitting in the corner for months. I actually SLICED about it all the way back then. Since 2024, Ralph has become a permanent fixture around here. We’ve expanded his wardrobe just a bit with Bitty Baby sized clothes from Amazon. American Girl really has to do better with having gender neutral or boy inspired clothes. Their options are…limited…at best.

I have a gift. It’s really a superpower. I think about it most every night but I never realized it was a superpower until today. I was at a networking meeting. We were doing introductions. As you do. Announce your name, where you work, your position, and your superpower.

McKenna wants a bunny. Like really REALLY badly. It’s all she talks about. She has been keeping a list on the Notes app of her iPad. It includes all the things she needs for this bunny she wants as a pet. I’m talking toys, bedding, potty things, house, leash, cute collar, brush. Clothes…? 😳