Changing your mindset is SO difficult to do. We talk about it in schools a lot. Is a student attention seeking or are they connection seeking? Same thing but different mindset.

Still fucking hard to do. 

A friend created a pack of cards she lovingly calls Mindset Bullshit. I think it started because she thought it was bullshit but knows just how useful it can be. There are 52 cards in the deck. I think.

I keep the box on my desk at work with a business card holder on top of it. Every now and then I’ll choose a new card to pull and display. Then I promptly forget about it as it becomes wallpaper I cease to even notice.

Today I was getting down on myself. As you do.

How could you make that stupid mistake?
Why can’t you just do the thing?
You can rest when you’re finished with this task. 
You’re really looking puffy today. 

I looked away from my computer for a moment and this little gem caught my eye. She’s right. Wouldn’t let my daughter say those things to or about herself. I’d build her up. I’d call her out for being too hard on herself. So why do I allow it for me? It was a good reminder.

Maybe that mindset bullshit works.

I am writing for the 18th annual Slice of Life challenge presented by Two Writing Teachers.